I have dreams of being a spoken word artist some day. This is one of the pieces I’ve written in that pursuit but have yet to perform. Actually, I’ve yet to perform any spoken word piece I’ve created. I had aspirations to perform a piece for the first time in 2020; but as we all know 2020 had other plans.
You’ll see that this is largely without punctuation and it may have typos… because every time I start reading to add punctuation or start editing, I end up performing it instead and the power of the emotions, feelings and words carry me right through to the end and I realize I again haven’t done any editing. So… instead of waiting until I figure out how to read it without performing it in my head and it is proofed, I present it here as it is now in all the messiness… with all of the heart and soul beating through.
And perhaps someday I’ll figure out how to add the capacity to upload videos to this blog and I’ll record this and post the performance of this piece.
To imperfection and showing up just as we are right now.
Intuition
Why did you move here?
I’m at a networking event
And we’ve been talking about his line of work
And then he asks the dreaded question…
In my head, I rattle through all the lines I’ve concocted over the years
The ones that sound good…
It was time to try somewhere new
I found a job I was interested in
I found an organization I really wanted to work with
I wanted to join family here
And I PAUSE
And B-R-E-A-T-H-E
And realize I can tell him the real reason
I moved to California, to the Bay Area
Because I was called here
It was, and is, where I need to be
He says to me
You had an intuition
And everything in me screams yes… Y-E-S
Those were the word I wanted to say!
And I realize
Even after hearing about his profession
And how he shows up in the world
That I still hesitated
And covered up my truth
My L-I-G-H-T
What if we showed up
Just as we are
Just who we are
Right here
Right now
What kind of power would that hold
What kind of magic would we release into the world
What if
When people ask me why I moved here
I said I had an inner knowing, an intuition, that this is where I need to be
No matter who it was
Or where I was
Or what impression I thought it would make
What if YOU showed up in the world
Just as you are… right here, right now
What if you told the world
That you’re educated by the streets, not an institution
That your job is to change hearts and minds, not a stock price
That your bank account doesn’t always balance
That you like to blare music with cuss words
That you haven’t been the parent you hoped you would be
What kind of power
What kind of change
What kind of R-E-A-L world
Could we create… together
Perhaps, just maybe…
One that I want to live in
One you want to live in
A world we WANT to live in… together